panic attacks and more

it’s finally over. FOR GOOD. i felt so terrible, horrible. i thought that i was going to faint in the middle of departures, terminal 1. bright lights, breathelessness, physically weak, chills, tingling fingers etc. i was experiencing panic attacks for the whole of last night and this morning even.

talked to some people about it and came terms to the ending. it’s just not worth it. he’s a chronic liar who lies again and again, over and over again. i deserve better.

heeding advice from someone senior, i’m going to back off like he told me to. cooling off period. ok.

at the end of the day, we’re still colleagues and we have to work together. i’ll have to deal with it, somehow. no lunch buddy anymore but that’s alright. i still have my other supportive colleagues. i still have my friends. i still have my family.

at the end of the day, i know that i have done nothing wrong against him. i did not lie or hide, i do not have a guilty conscience. and that’s what is most important to me.

at the end of the day, i’m still DAPHNE, the cheerful girl with a child-like personality. =)

P/S: a lot of protected/private entries are now made public because i see no reason to conceal anymore. those emotions are what i felt then, might not neccessarily be what i’m feeling now.